forgiveness

Sometimes people don't even know, how hard for another person it was to forgive. Long months of lies, doubts... Sometimes this person wanted to close this chapter in her life, but couldn't do it. Many sleepless nights of thinking. Convincing yourself, that you can do it, you can finish this, but when it came to this, it was impossible. Impossible to stay angry at, to blame other person. While looking in her eyes feeling happy, smiling, forgetting about all matters, worries. And then... thinking, that the other person can't witness it... Can't stop worrying just because of your presence. It hurts, it is slowly killing you. You can't breathe, you can't sleep, your mind seems not your own. You try not to think about it, imagine, that it is not true. Trying to survive it, hoping, that something will change. And then comes a day, that you have enough of all this doubts, you're tired of waiting. You're ready to move on. And there are few options... Nothing changes, and you have to move on. There's also an option that something changes, and the other person reciprocates your feelings. Then you can choose: you move on, or you stay. If you stay, you have doubt, if you still feel something to that person. And you also have to forgive that person, 'cause it's obvious, that you blame him, that you're upset about all lies and doubt. If you leave, move on, you keep thinking what if I stayed, what if I gave him a chance, what if... At the beginning, none of those options seems good, but it can turn out a great decision. You just have to choose wisely...

I miss you...